06.03.13 - 32nd Birthday in San Francisco! (Picture Heavy) and Saturday too :P

Today's my last day of vacation. Quite sad. Most of the time, I didn't do anything. This is how my vacation went:

Tuesday: Watched: Iron Man 3 and Star Trek: Into the Darkness

Wednesday: San Francisco (MY BDAY!: read on about it)

Thursday: Watched: Iron Man 3 and went to the mall and had a flat tire -_-;

Friday: Watched: Now You See Me and Star Trek: Into the Darkness

Saturday: Hung out with Bex

Yep, I watched many movies. ^_^;;;

But this post is going to be about Wednesday and Saturday

05.28.13 - Decorated pages...and Malden

I haven't blogged in awhile. >_<; I think I mentioned in my previous post that it's mostly due to the fact that my internet connection has been a piece of crap. It used to be really good but now...not so much. My dad got frustrated too and we just upgraded our service. We had the lowest one and now have the next one up (in speeds). It took a few days for it to get back to not kicking me off...

While my internet was dead, I watched a lot of DVD's. I watched Season 2 of Drop Dead Diva, Season 9 and 10 of Friends, all the SAW movies (yep, again), a few other DVD's that I have.  I really should've studied but the truth is I would have to look up some things while I was studying and I couldn't because of crappy internet connection. [Yeah, my excuse LOL!]

Okay, onto Filofax news. I've been drooling over the Gillio Firenze planners. I decided to bite the bullet and SPLURGE on one as a birthday gift to myself. My family doesn't celebrate birthdays so to make myself feel good [is that dumb?], I decided to get one. I wanted the Croco-Grey but decided to get the Croco-Aubergine. I changed my mind and emailed them to see if I could get the Grey one, but they were out of stock. Oh well. It was marked as shipped yesterday, so I have about a week to go before it gets here. 

Before I got the Gillio, I decided to get a Personal Malden in Grey. But, before I did that, I sold my Personal Osterley in Grey. As beautiful as it was, I couldn't bond with it the way I did with the Metropol and the Finsbury. I had it for about a month... Oh well. I ordered (on impulse) the Personal Malden in Grey. I think it was because people kept posting about their Maldens in the Philofaxy group on Facebook.

Honestly, I'm not very keen on the Malden but I loved the pockets on the inside and the fact that you can stuff it like mad! Well, I ordered on Amazon and was extremely happy to see that I got it a week later. 

Here it is! Isn't he handsome? Though, I do like the Malden the color isn't speaking to me. One of my favorite colors is grey. But the grey Filofaxes have disappointed me (first the Osterley and now the Malden). I love how the color looks in the above photo. That's taken with a flash (actually, all the photos in this blog post was taken with a flash) and it appears beautiful! I love that shade of grey. But in person, it's darker... and I don't like that. 

Someone in the group wants to swap for a grey Malden for their vintage pink one. I'm totally up for the challenge! I hope! Lol. 

Anyway, I've babbled enough! I'm going to show you how I've been decorating my pages. 

05.18.13 - This May, I became obsessed with many things -_-;

My internet has been really crappy lately. When I say crappy, I mean DIAL-UP is better than what I have. My parents didn't notice it much, but I noticed it. I thought it was just because of how far my room is compared to where our router is located. Nope, even the desktop which is connected to the router is going stupidly slow too. 

So, I've been thinking and looking around for different internet providers. Our area doesn't allow for regular DSL or cable internet (stupid, right?) We have fiberoptics. Unfortunately for us, only one company is able to do it in our area. Another unfortunate thing is...it's quite expensive.

Lately, I've been thinking of trying out Clearwire. Supposedly, they have it in our area. We have representatives at our store everyday so it makes me wonder if employees will get a discount and if the internet will be faster. It's a little more expensive (by $5) but it should work for us. I'll have to talk to some of our sales people about it first. See what happens or whatever...

All the things I need to do, [real estate license studying, my online store, and basic...internet thingers :P] just aren't cutting it. This is also why I haven't been blogging. 

Anyway, onto things I'm obsessing over. And yes, the Clearwire thing was one of the obsessions. I've been thinking about it for the last few months.

05.02.13 - Windows 8, I don't like you.

When I got this laptop, I was excited because this would be my second computer EVER that I had ever purchased with my own money. The laptops that I had before this one were used and gifted to me by my brother [his work place changes computers often and sells them/gives it to people for free/cheap]. The first one I purchased by myself was a custom built one that my brother made for me. In fact, we still have it (sitting in the garage collecting dust. It was only replaced about a year ago by my Dad. I don't use that computer)

Anyway, when I got my tax return (yep, that's what I used to purchase the laptop), I saw that they had this laptop on sale. I didn't look at what OS it was or anything but checked out the memory and the ram. I don't know much about computers but it seemed pretty decent. Then again, most things are better than my DEAD laptop ^_^;

So I got home and charged it and turned it on once it was fully charged. Um... what? Windows 8!? I've never heard anyone say anything about it. The next day when people were asking about it, I was like "Oh, it's Windows 8". They all gave me a look. One said "What's wrong with you? Is it a touch-screen laptop?" O_O; I was confused. Why would it be a touch-screen? Apparently, that's what Windows 8 is good for. Tablets and touch screen computers. X__x;

So, I got used to it.... then I started to have to do things. I need certain software to do my art things with. What?! Not compatible! The thing I needed the most and it's not compatible with: DELETER's COMICWORKS

:/ Not happy. Fine! I'll try and figure it out... I don't have to finish my comic for awhile (since I'll only work on it when I have time). Then, I decided I needed to use my drawing tablet. So I downloaded the driver that's supposed to be for Windows 8. :/ Something's wrong with it. Umm... what? I even downloaded it from the actual site. It works but not very well. It makes extra marks when it doesn't need to, which means more erasing. I just kept it.

Suddenly, my scanner decides to die. ;___; Dude, this scanner is NEW! I think I got it in October 2012. :/ The light doesn't come on which makes it...NOT SCAN. :/ I need it for scanning my art to make labels for my i+t items, especially since I have some new collections I plan on releasing soon. 

I decided I'm going to TRY and draw digitally. I tried downloading Paint Tool Sai and it said it's compatible with Windows 8. :/ LIES! It kept saying there was an error and I downloaded it from the site. :/ Windows 8, I was tolerating you... but now I want to chuck my laptop out the window. :(

As of right now, I'm trying to draw in Photoshop and it's going OKAY. The extra erasing/deleting is a pain in the butt, but I can't do anything about it :( Oh well, I'll have to figure this out. I don't have the funds to buy a new scanner either. *sigh*

03.14.13 - Filofax Amazona in Almond and life and such

It's strange how certain things make you check your tracking number every five minutes. I have many obsessions and the Filofaxes have made me stalk my tracking numbers constantly. I don't know what it is about these things but...

Anyway, I don't remember if I mentioned before but I'm taking real estate courses (online/correspondence courses. Recommended by the California Dept. of Real Estate)...  Anyway, my Pocket Finsbury was starting to feel a little cramped because of the classes. So, I started looking on eBay for personal sized ones. Sure, I have my Personal Metropol, but I've already designated it as something else already.

I don't know why I started looking at the Amazona and the Osterley. I couldn't decide... but I know for sure I really wanted the Amazona in Almond. After losing an auction for one, I gave up for a few days and looked at different ones (not an Amazona or an Osterley :P).

Out of pure luck, I found another Amazona in Almond on eBay. The seller did an auction and had a buy it now option. You bet your butt I did the Buy it Now. It was cheaper than what I would've paid in that auction that I had lost!!!

The seller, Karina, is also in the Philofaxers FB group. I wasn't sure if it was her, but when she messaged me, I knew it was her. Anyway, she sent me many progress reports and photos and kept getting me all hyped up and excited about it. ^_^; Unfortunately, I purchased it over the weekend so I had to wait. Why does it seem like I always get them over the weekend? :P

 On the day it arrived (yesterday), I kept checking my tracking number and it never said "DELIVERED". I was getting frustrated and just went to my PO BOX and there it was!!! YAY!

Once I got home, I literally ripped the package open ^_^;;

03.05.13 - Insert something interesting here :P

I really suck at titles. 

A few things have happened that's quite... stressful? I haven't written about life-things in awhile. Lol, it seems my blog has become obsessed with my Filofax. ^_^;;; More of those posts to come, btw ^_^;;; Hehehe!

Is it sad that Filofax has made me happy? ^_^; Mostly because I've been decorating and filling it (well my, Metropol...). 

I used to go to work to get away from stress at home. And life at home, is very stressful. But we're not talking about home right now, I'll be talking about work. The last few weeks have been extremely stress and anxiety-filled. Everyone's scared of losing their jobs, including me. 

Last week, one of our supervisors, M, got fired. It wasn't official until yesterday. [We have to wait until our corporate office confirms it] She's the one that transferred here and got the position that I wanted/was supposed to get. Two weeks ago, she got suspended for three days for messing up and when she came back, she was late every single day that she worked. That's what got her fired because she was still on probation.

Anyway, my manager went to a few of the supervisors (he didn't go to me!!! Maybe that's a good thing???) and told them that they're doing whatever they can to fire us so try not to make any mistakes and especially, don't be late. <--That could be why he didn't tell me. I'm never late. I'm always 30 minutes early. When he told us that, all the supervisors were freaking out. I was freaking out because I make a lot of mistakes :( I try not to but sometimes when you're distracted... It happens.

I've been so stressed that I'm surprised my hair hasn't gone all white :P Also, I haven't been sleeping or eating much lately. When I eat, it feels like a brick in my stomach. So I just have a few bites and yeah.. that's it. Sleeping is torture. No matter how tired I am, my mind is overly active. It just won't let me sleep. 

I totally lost my train of thought. Well, the Filofax has been giving me a little happiness in life. It's strange that a planner could do that but it takes my mind off of things. I'm still trying to work on filling my Metropol. 

I was distracted because I'm talking to a friend on Facebook right now and he just gave me a link for the scanlation for Koe no Katachi  which is a one-shot manga that just came out in Japan's Shounen Jump and it's causing a lot of controversy because it's about bullying. 

Well... I guess that's it for this post ^_^; Since I"ve completely lost my train of thought lol. 

01.10.13 - I'm lonely... so I blog

Lately, all I've been doing here is whine and complain. Of course, that's what this blog here is for ^_-; Unfortunately for whoever's reading this, I'll be whining/complaining for a bit more. Lol. 

Since I couldn't get anyone to switch schedules with me today (which is shocking because everyone's always trying to get my opening shift; but they couldn't because they had plans or something), I had to set my alarm clock (a new one since my other one died!) to wake myself up even EARLIER than I normally do on opening shifts. I set my alarm at 5am (I usually wake up at 530am). I also went to bed earlier. The only other time I go to bed that is on Thanksgiving night so I could wake up early for Black Friday. I did it because I wasn't sure if I could sleep (haven't slept in 2 days because of the arm pain). It was a good thing I did because though I could sleep, things kept waking me up. (I'm a very light sleeper) -_-;

A few reasons why I woke up earlier:

#1) It takes me longer to shower and get ready for work

#2) It's freezing in the morning and my car is parked in the driveway so it gets iced over and I have to melt off the ice before I can leave

#3) Driving very very carefully because I still couldn't really use my arm.

I admit that when I woke up, I was happy to feel (lol) that I could move my arm upwards and downards more than the last few days. Yay!

Once I got to work, I had trouble getting out of my coat. Lol! -_-; 

09.25.12 - Sleeping problems = shopping sprees

Okay, that title is false. Lol! But I didn't know what else to say. 

A week ago (?) Kawaii-Ya [forgot their site, but it's on their fb page] posted on their FB page that if you buy $20 worth of shtuff, you get 3 adorable sheets of Halloween stickers. Omg, have you been to their site? You can spend more than $20! That's what I did! -_-; 

I was having a bad day when I received it, but when I received it, I was super duper happy and excited. Funny how material things make you happy ;) Hehehe. Most of it's going to be used for my i+t store and my planner. All the deco tape is for my store and MOST of the stickers are for my planner. My planner is going to be so damned decorated! You might as well just call it a sticker book LOL

 Speaking of planners. I received my planners (yes two of them) from Yesstyle awhile ago. I purchased two of them. This one and a very plain one. (No adorable pix or anything...just text and ....that's it LOL) I had a hard time deciding which one I'm going to use and I planned on starting in October. I chose the overly cute one. Though, honestly, I think I should've chosen the plain one. It has more writing space.... and since it's the holiday season... I usually end up doing more things... Oh well! It's already too late since I've already started decorating them and adding the monthly tabs (you can kind of see it in the photo above).

I'm going to make my planner sickeningly cute! The one I'm using now is deathly boring. I don't decorate or use colorful pens. Why? It's ugly... But has a lot of room to write in. I can't color coordinate because of the paper. It smudges all gel pens, felt-tip pens, roller ball pens. So I'm just using a boring ballpoint pen. 

Shockingly, I've been using my planner religiously the past month. It helps me keep track of my bills, chores I have to do around the house since the parents aren't home, my store stuff, work stuff, etc. Though honestly, mostly things I have to do around the house. 

 I've been looking for a new wallet. The ones I have are too big or too small. I like the size of the long wallets but the ones I have are too clunky and chunky! 

I went to Nordstrom today and was debating on two wallets. This one [Ted Baker] and a Kate Spade one. Since they were displayed next to each other, I just shut my eyes and grabbed one. 

The Kate Spade one is a zip-around wallet. I don't really like those but it does keep everything secure. Not only was it a long wallet, it was also a little bigger (in height). I have a medium-sized bag and the long wallets already BARELY fit in my bag, so if I got that one... :/ I should just bring my wallet. 

The reason I chose this one is that the leather is soft. The  Kate Spade one was very structured and STIFF. As much as I liked the stiffness... I had a feeling I was going to have a hard time getting things out of my wallet. This wallet looks quite stiff but it's actually very squishy. Lol. It's not made out of cheap leather either, it's really nice. This is my 2nd Ted Baker wallet. The other one I have is clunky -_-;. This one... not so much. ^_^;

There were different designs. There was another one that reminded me of spring that I was deciding on... but I really liked this vintage-feel. I don't know... I just think it's beautiful. :P

Well, that's all for now! I forgot I had to open tomorrow. Somehow, that always happens -_-;

09.22.12 - Random thoughts because I don't want to sleep ;)

As the title says... I don't want to sleep, so I just go through random web sites. I like trying to find indie comics. I would DIE to go to APE-con which is held in October (next month!) in San Francisco. I wonder if I can get the days off ;P

Anyway, I was looking through my webcomic lists that I haven't read in a LONG time. <--I should say I haven't read ANY webcomics in like years, but I have them bookmarked. It made me want to do webcomics again. I wanted to do a slice of life, almost daily thing like Johnny Wander. Honestly, my favorite webcomics are slice of life. 

Well, I was thinking that if I did this I'd have to commit to it and I'd have to learn to draw faster or do it digitally. The thing is, I'm not a digital artist. I like to do things traditionally. If I did that, I'd like to work on it as much as possible which means I'd want to work on it at work. That's really hard for me to do because I get distracted really easily and if people saw that I was drawing, they would bug me about it. 

Besides, I have my i+t stuff to work on. I, honestly, miss drawing comics. One of these days, I'll have to finish the prologue to [LIFE^2] after all... I only have 2 pages left to do and that's not including the cover. <--that makes me really sad because TWO PAGES! GAHHhhh! Why is it so hard?! ;( Why do I keep putting it off!?

Though, the [LIFE^2] story is harder for me to do because while the prologue is well-thought out; the rest of it is still in the "notes" stages. 

When I do my comics, I want people to be emotionally attached to them. I like heart-warming stories, I like stories that create different emotions in the readers.... *sigh* I really am babbling. I guess I should go to bed now...

09.09.12 - Updates and junk?

As of last Thursday, I'm the only Linda in our store. It's quite strange...since there's always another Linda. And this Linda is in the same department as me and has been there only a month before me. Well, she's gone now (got fired). 

Now, I won't hear the "Hi LindaS" or the different nicknames we get "Asian Linda" (that's me) or "White Linda" (that's her). etc. And since she does all the hiring... it'll fall back into my hands since I'm the backup person since I was the one who hired for our store before her. 

And I must say... her desk is a MESS! Her organization...is NOT organized! I couldn't find ANYTHING! Last week we had one new hire, next week there might be two. Ahh... I don't know. I was looking for all the paperwork and it took me FOREVER to find everything to make new hire packets. *sigh*

Next week (tomorrow), we have a new hire again. But my schedule was changed because of another supervisor who told my manager I wanted to close instead of having a mid-shift. It's true but if he puts me at mid-shift then I'll accept it. 

Anyway, he changed my schedule (what he thought he was going to do) because he wanted me to do all the new hire training but because of that supervisor... he had to change it. Because of that, my manager asked J to see if she could do the training. She's the only other person that has experience in training new hires. But she only did it for 6 months (I did it for 2 years). She doesn't like it and she doesn't remember how to do it. -_-;

So the problem was...calling the new hires to see what time they were supposed to come in. I didn't know when to schedule them. :/ But after contemplating for awhile... I just stuck to what we did last week, even if I couldn't be there.

That's all the work stuff (so far). 

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The parents have been away for 3 weeks now. (They're coming back to get things) My brother said that they might come back (fully) in October. I guess they're not done fixing that house they're working on. 

Anyway, ... the first day that they were fully gone... I went to take some photos with my camera at the nearby park :P As I was doing that... My aunt, who was out on a walk, saw me and joined me. We chatted and stuff... Anyway... here we go! The photos!

That week, our front yard was blooming with roses! We don't have bushes (yet) just a few sprouts here and there.

I was testing out the macro... so far I think it's pretty amazing :)

Some more little flowers in our front yard...

Here's a rose that's dying

I just watered these...

Here's the nearby park. I like how the grass looks (am I weird? Lol)

That's why I took a closeup of the grass ^_^;

Still at the park...

More grass

I was listening to my iPod as I was taking photos and going on my walk.... Lol, you can see my reflection ;D

At the man-made lake. This is where my aunt found me.

Anyways! More things I found on my camera.

Amanda of Less than 3 Lacquer had a major sale on her nail polishes! So, I bought them O_o; I love them! ^_^;

Last week, when I was washing my car, I spotted this spider (people say it's a Black Widow) spinning it's prey into a web. Used my Panasonic camera again. I'm really getting a LOT of use out of this camera. There's only ONE photo I need to test out before I can decide on selling my SLR. But so far...so good.

These two amazingly beautiful sky photos were taken a few days ago when the weather was getting bipolar.  -__-; The day after this photo was taken, we had a thunder/lightning storm.

I'm kind of sad that that 3 weeks that they've been away I hadn't really gone anywhere. The only place I went to was San Francisco (read previous post). But... I wasn't in the mood. Or I was always thinking "oh, on my day off I'll go _____". But I end up not...

Last week, I had 3 days off. One was a paid day off. I was wondering what I should do. I was thinking of going to the mall just to walk around... but I ended up ONLY getting my hair chopped off and that's it -_-; The other days, I did regular chores and errands. But that Wednesday was supposed to be my day. I wanted to watch a movie but there was nothing out I wanted to see... and etc. I guess that's why I just decided to stay home.

I decided to go to the local Farmer's Market today, so I had to wake up super early (for me it's early :P). Usually, my aunt would want to go because her family doesn't take her places :/ So she'd be up for it. At around 830 AM, I called her to see if she wanted to go. She said "No" because she was on her way to San Francisco with my uncle. -_-;

Bah! Lol! I stayed home a little longer, then at 1030 am, I headed out....To make a long story short: I got lost 3 times and by the time I got there...it was closed. I wanted to go because we were out of vegetables :( So, I went to the nearby Asian Market and got some veggies. Sad, cuz it was more expensive...

I dunno. I went home and stuck them in the fridge... but I wanted to go buy something for some reason. So, I went to ULTA and ended up getting a Stila eyeshadow palette. I didn't know they were having their 21 (?) days of summer sale. So if you buy a certain amount from a certain brand, you get some sort of gift with purchase. Apparently, I was supposed to get a Stila freebie, but they ran out and they gave me a UDPP instead. I think I have like 10 of these (exaggeration, of course). I don't even need to buy any more UDPP! :P

Well... I guess that's it. I should try and blog more but... I dunno... Sometimes I feel in the mood to do it and other times I'm like "What!? I have a blog!?!?"

09.04.12 - Last minute trip to SF

I was completely FREE on Sunday. I didn't want to stay home or anything... so a few days before Sunday, I texted my friends to see if they wanted to go to San Francisco to hang out.

Since it was a last minute thing, one of them had other plans... but I got to hang out with Betsy :)

She was supposed to pick me up at 8am. I had a closing shift the night before and couldn't sleep very well [somehow that always happens! :P]. Woke up at 6 am and I was like "what!? It's not like I'm going to work! I can wake up at 7am!". But, once I wake up, I can't go back to sleep. So I just got up and took a shower.

When I was done with my shower, I got a text from Betsy saying she overslept (:P) so she'd probably get here at 9am. 

I decided to take that time doing some QUICK errands. Quick errands = going to the bank and taking some cash out [so I don't spend that much money RAWR] and buying some snacks/food for our trip to and from. 

Went home and waited... I didn't have to wait long. She arrived 15 minutes later. Lol.

I hadn't seen Betsy in like a year(?). So we were catching up in the car, which is kind of funny because we hadn't decided on where we were going yet ;D So, we were just driving and talking and when we got to the Bay Bridge was when we realized we didn't have a destination yet! Lol

 The weather report had said it was going to be 75 degrees. Which is quite shocking since it's almost always 60 degrees. Once we got to the Bay Bridge, there was a ton of thick fog. No surprise there ;P

08.17.12 - My favorite time of year :)

Lately, during my lunch breaks, I haven't been napping. I usually nap right after I eat and my naps take about 10 minutes. Anyway, I don't know what's been going on with my sleeping habits lately... Basically, I can't sleep. Even at home. I can't take naps either.

Actually, today was the first (last night??? whatever) time I slept in 3 days. -_-; But more on that later!

So, because I have so much time left in my lunchbreak, I've been playing games on my phone. 

I love the DELICIOUS EMILY series (EMILY DELICIOUS?). So far, there's only two games and of course these are time management games. I finally beat TURBO SUBS...

This is the first game out of the two. I've played this 4 times already. This time, I'm playing on the hard level. Let me say it IS more difficult! 

06.22.12 - Scars and White Shirts

A week ago, I was craving for a tuna sandwich. >_< It was a VERY strong craving. Ever since I found out I was allergic to seafood, pork, and beef... I've been craving for those things. Especially pork which is WEIRD because I didn't realize how much pork we used to have. I think it's because my mom always mixed it in things so you don't really notice? Maybe?

I feel kind of bad because now all of our meals have to be separated. Usually, we just fling them all together but because of my allergies, my food has to be made separately. We use a lot of oyster sauce and now I can't have it. 

Anyway, so that day my STRONG craving for a tuna sandwich made me weak... cuz I got one from the cafe at work. X_x; Next thing you know, I had rashes on my body. Not a lot... but enough to make me feel uncomfortable.

But I must've scratched in my sleep or something because now I have a big patch of rash scars. I was surprised since I don't remember scratching. But like I said, I probably scratched in my sleep... It's like when you get mosquito bites... sometimes you just scratch them in your sleep. I know I do.

I'm lactose intolerant. I can handle a TEEENY TINY bit of dairy, like in a candy bar or something. But in most things, I can't. 

Anyway, I noticed that when I DO have a teeny tiny bit of dairy (aka chocolate cuz of my unhappy moods lately)... My eczema flares up. It doesn't just get a teeny bit itchy. Omg no, I get SUPER DUPER itchy! In fact, I think I get more itchy than when I have my allergic-reaction-rashes. X_x;

Onto other news, my brand new white shirt is ruined. *sigh* Isn't that how it always is? White shirts just attract all the things you don't want on them. The same thing happened to me a week ago (?). I was doing a cash pull and leaned against the safe... TAADAAA!!! BLACK GREASE STAINS!!

This makes me REALLY sad because #1) It's a NEW shirt!!!!!! #2) I ACTUALLY LIKE IT!!! X___x; I liked it enough to buy one in a different color!  #3) It makes me feel thinner (I dont' think it makes me LOOK thinner but it makes me FEEL thinner :P~)

I'm going to try to get it off. It's not as much as the other one... there's a smear on my boob and on my hip-area. :/ And because it's JET BLACK grease, it's quite noticeable.

I was bored two hours ago... There was no one to talk to online, nothing to read or watch... so I decided to stock up on two of my shades. I was going to do 3 but my eyes got tired. Since my supplier doesn't make some of the ingredients I needed any more... I re-formulated those two colors instead. 

I also made a list of what I needed to stock up on (err... re-make so I would have enough to sell). I need to make (as of now) 17 shades. So much fun.

When I got home from work, I don't know what happened. I just suddenly wanted to write down some new ideas for colors.

Then, it turned out that I wanted to create a whole new collection. It makes me sad because I still haven't finished the Lurvlies and I haven't decided on any colors for the BR collection yet. X_x; 

Well, this new collection has 23 colors and it's literally all planned out already. The colors are all planned out (I had some super inspiration or something!) and the names are too. I wrote it all down.

The sad part is... I have names for the BR collection (I believe it'll be 19 shades) but I haven't decided on colors yet. 

Ugh,.. I'm rambling and my eyebulbs are wanting to shut :P

06.18.12 - Damn allergies

The weather here has been kind of....NUTS lately. The last two days have been CRAZY hot. Last night, the weather cooled down dramatically! Today, it's quite cool. But because of the winds, my allergies are acting up making my eyes feel kind of weird.

Anyway, I finished one of my bust-shot commissions and shipped off all my latest i+t orders so I decided to work on my other commissions (I have two more). 

I'm quite irritated that my schedule has changed the last two weeks (last week and this week). My days off were different and next week too. I had a closing shift yesterday. Before I went to work, I told myself to do the pencils for my latest commission and I did. I brought it to work to ink on my lunch break. 

On my lunch break, I was glad to see that no one had lunch with me, so that I could concentrate on drawing. I get distracted VERY easily and if someone watches me draw, I get VERY nervous. I was doing well for 30 minutes and then someone had to sit with me and talk to me non-stop. *sigh* I was a little irritated, but whatever. It did wreck my concentration :/ and I couldn't finish it ;_;

Here it is. I finished inking it this morning. Since my eyes are being weird, I don't plan on coloring it yet, maybe tomorrow. I'm going to figure out how to color GRADIENT hair because this person's original character has gradient hair. 

06.01.12 - Now I know how you really feel...

Maybe I'm the only one that does this, but I judge how my year will be based on New Year's Day and my birthday. 

So far, this year has not been turning out well...

It's been two days since my birthday and on May 30th, everything went downhill already. My parents have not been in the best of moods. But it's understandable... whenever something goes wrong, they take it out on me.

Today, in my room, on my desk... I had a bunch of eyeshadows (similar shades) in a pile. I was going to do my second ... indie dupe post. Well, the parents threw a fit >_<; I admit, they don't come into my room often. In fact, I think the last time they were in here, it was a year ago. 

They started screaming at me about money (their usual). They saw the eyeshadow and the nailpolish and yelled, "Who are you trying to impress?! You're so fat, no one would care anyway! So you're just wasting all your money!!!"

WOW! Thanks self-esteem. I always knew they hated my weight (my whole family does; including grandparents and such) and being Chinese...they're blunt about it. But this really just takes the cake. 

Before this, I had also planned on doing a b-day post. But I just depressed myself... So...maybe another time

05.29.12 - HAPPY BIRFFFDAY TO MEEEE!

WHY!? Why am I out of this!? Of all days X_x; I really like this stuff. X_x; My damned oily face isn't oily with it on! (At least, for me!) I have another mattifying...thingy -_-; Oh, a primer... but I like the spray more. It works just as well, but like I said...I like the spray more.

I'd buy another one but I don't have the money LOL. Plus, might as well use up the primer. *nods* 

I couldn't really sleep last night and didn't really want to sleep in. I'm not excited, if that's what you're thinking. As I've said before...my birthdays are always a HUGE disappointment or I end up extremely depressed. So, I'm not getting my hopes up for tonight. 

But I just can't see to sleep my "normal" hours. I seem to have gone back to my old sleeping habits. -Aka- if something wakes me up...can't sleep again! 

The parents were collecting their tools at around 6am (I slept at 3am) and it's not loud but they have to do it next to my room, so I can hear them scrounging and such. X_x; So, that woke me up. I tried to go back to sleep..but after an hour...I quit. LOL! 

So, I took a shower, did my laundry, paid some bills. Now I'm here. Taa daa! I do have an errand to run but it's still early (for me). I usually like going out in the afternoon. 

I kind of want to re-stock my store or make new shades. But... I don't have a lot of supplies to do that. I'm almost completely out of 4 colors. 

I also want to make my special LE colors. 

I need to draw too -_-; 

05.26.12 - I really should be working on something else

But I'm here cuz I'm excited! 

One of the things I was stressing about was my vacation. I won't be able to use money but because I can't be at home >_> I have to go places. But I didn't have any idea where to go!

I had this weird idea but I had to make sure the other people would be okay with it first. 

The idea was.... 

05.25.12 - Whining and an asshole customer :P

I've been whining so much lately. I really don't mean to. But it's my form of therapy. X_x; More whines to come :P

I'm thankful that all these people want to go to my birthday dinner. I'm thankful that a lot of people are helping me set it up, so that I don't have to do it. I really am grateful for that. I'm happy that you're trying to help me every way that you can and supporting me...

But... why are you inviting all these people to my birthday dinner that I don't know or talk to? 

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Last month, my other friend and I planned on going to SF together 2 days after my birthday. We haven't hung out in awhile... She said she'll take it down on her calendar.

So why am I getting all these FB statuses about her being in another state for a few weeks? :/ I texted her and asked her if we were still going and if not, I understand...but no answer.

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Before I got home, my brother texted me warning me to be careful when I get home cuz Dad was mad. My brother says the dumbest things that tick off my Dad all the time. I know he doesn't mean it, but he words it in ways that sound very rude. X__x; Yep, once I got home... I got bitched at because of him. :/

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05.25.12 - I'm the most indecisive person of the universe!

...from the previous post, I'm still under heavy stress and am super... anxious? I've had a few panic attacks, but they're gone now. Thank goodness. I haven't had those things since we first moved here.

Still haven't been able to eat or sleep. Well, the sleep thing is a different story from last time. The past few days, I was packing up orders like a madwoman since I was like 'OMG I need to ship these out BY THIS WEEK!" I'm still within my turnaround time, but if I set my mind to it... I will do it! I don't like being late on things X_x;

Yeah, so I've been packing up orders until the wee mornings forgetting that I have opening shifts at work *cough* :P~ Also, there was a cricket that found it's way inside our house >_< and chirped outside my room door ALLLLLL NIGHT!

I guess the not eating thing is "good" for me too. I need to lose me some weight. I must say that my stomach (actual organ containing food) must've shrunk from all the non-eating because when I DO eat, I can only eat a TINY amount or else I'll get full or not want to eat any more. I HAVE been drinking a LOT of water! 

Sometimes I'm super hungry but then when I think of food, my stomach reacts X_x; and says "NO!". So then, I'm like "okay, I'll drink some water!" X_x; but it doesn't ...I don't know...it doesn't help. So, I buy juice to tide me over. It's weird... but the juice helps. 

Anyway, EVERYONE at work (including managers O_O; ) has noticed how my demeanor has completely changed. I mean, I'm usually cheerful (hey! I said USUALLY :P) but I've been so down that I can't even talk or don't want to. I just stand there and stare. And I'm always worrying... and thinking about the family problems....so much that it distracts me from work. I can't seem to pay attention to the present. :/

I even told a bunch of people (read previous post) that I was thinking of cancelling my birthday dinner thing. But everyone said I shouldn't because it's MY BIRTHDAY and we should celebrate it. But, I'm really in no mood to celebrate. HOLY CRAP I JUST REMEMBERED WE HAVE A POT LUCK AT WORK TOMORROW! X_x; OH well... <--can't really do anything about it.

But I still wanted to do the birthday dinner. I never feel special on my birthday. All I want for my birthdays are to be happy and surrounded by friends and possibly family (if they're not in the worst of moods which is ALWAYS during this month!). So I was pretty excited when all those people said they'd go to my birthday thing...I'm used to people cancelling on me ON the day or just not showing up. Oh crap...it's not even the day yet... Maybe they'll not show up like it happens every year. X_x;

I'll be positive! RAWR!

Anyway, Sandy suddenly texted me saying "we need to talk" O_o; I was wondering what the heck I did wrong or something. Turns out that her and a few other people were talking and suggested we NOT go to the Korean BBQ because MOST people can't afford it (we're told to bring $30 each person: that's for food, drinks [if you drink], and the included gratuity because we'll be having a big group). They suggested AppleBee's. 

When I asked other people about it, they gave me a face like "UGH!" x_X; Turns out a lot of people don't like that place. I don't mind it. I spent many a birthday there when we lived in Chico. We always only ordered appetizers :P

Then we were all arguing back and forth about where to go. Finally, one of the cashiers yelled "Linda! It's YOUR birthday! YOU DECIDE!" Damn, why do that to me?! I'm the most indecisive person in the universe :P~ 

We've finally settled to On the Border. I've never been there before but a lot of people seem to like it. ^_^;; Now to see who's going to show up.

I told my bro not to buy me anything for my b-day but to help me pay my phone bill @___@; I'd rather have bills paid off than getting gifts. *nods*. My phone bill isn't really high, it was just the first bill I saw ;P So, I'm happy about that. One less bill to pay.

 Totally off topic! I was organizing my closet the other day and I found an item I got for my brother TWO YEARS AGO!!! LOL! Apparently, I kept forgetting to give it to him! Whoopsies! X_x; I got it at the California State Fair two years ago. It was my first time there. I had fun, I want to go again...

I thought my brother would like it. I think I got it for him for his early birthday present. *snorts* Turned out to be LATE birthday present ;P~~~

Anyway, that is all. I'm getting tired and wondering what to bring for tomorrow's pot luck at work X_x;

05.17.12 - It's almost my birthday!

RAWR! I wrote a bit and then accidentally closed the window. *sigh* It didn't save. X_x;

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It's been a long time since I've made a post. I, actually, blog / journal for stress relief. I even bought an actual journal so I could start up journaling again. <--this was months ago! X_x; I don't particularly know where it's gone. Lol! 

It's almost my birthday! I don't know if it's a good thing or a bad thing. I'll be 31. I can't believe how these years have flown by. Living in this city, the time really HAS flown by. Living in the previous town... it dragged on. I lived there for 6 years and here, it'll be 7 years in August. 

As far as I can remember, my birthdays suck. My parents are true believers in "Who cares if it's your birthday! We don't need to celebrate it!" My mom usually buys a small cake and that's usually it. Sometimes, they treat me worse on my birthday exclaiming that I haven't done anything in my life. I haven't amounted to anything, you know? It's, unfortunately, true. So that leads me to be depressed.

Speaking of depressed... that's what I've been feeling lately. Sometimes, I get this way. I can't concentrate on work or I can't even talk to anyone. I want to be left alone to mope. I can't eat. All I want to do is sleep because I know when I do...the days pass me by faster. I'm trying to bring myself out of it...but it's quite difficult. Also, because of that... I've been getting flare-ups on my eczema. So my skin's been bothering me like crazy.