innocent+twisted Alchemy

Wednesday, June 27, 2012

06.27.12 - time is flying by...

I've been really depressed lately. I can't even explain it.

anyway... my laptop is temporarily out of commission, which is quite sad. my laptop is pretty big so I don't lug it around and use it like a desktop. so it's always plugged in and charged. which of course means the battery is dead because of it being overcharged. a few days ago my charger died.

I'm really hoping its just the charger that died and not the actual port. I can't afford to get another computer. though they're selling some cheap at work but I don't have the money. good thing all my important things are on an external hd.

I do have a NetBook but I honestly don't like using it.

anyways I purchased a new charger on eBay and am waiting for it to arrive. i really hope it'll work

Friday, June 22, 2012

06.22.12 - Scars and White Shirts

A week ago, I was craving for a tuna sandwich. >_< It was a VERY strong craving. Ever since I found out I was allergic to seafood, pork, and beef... I've been craving for those things. Especially pork which is WEIRD because I didn't realize how much pork we used to have. I think it's because my mom always mixed it in things so you don't really notice? Maybe?

I feel kind of bad because now all of our meals have to be separated. Usually, we just fling them all together but because of my allergies, my food has to be made separately. We use a lot of oyster sauce and now I can't have it. 

Anyway, so that day my STRONG craving for a tuna sandwich made me weak... cuz I got one from the cafe at work. X_x; Next thing you know, I had rashes on my body. Not a lot... but enough to make me feel uncomfortable.

But I must've scratched in my sleep or something because now I have a big patch of rash scars. I was surprised since I don't remember scratching. But like I said, I probably scratched in my sleep... It's like when you get mosquito bites... sometimes you just scratch them in your sleep. I know I do.

I'm lactose intolerant. I can handle a TEEENY TINY bit of dairy, like in a candy bar or something. But in most things, I can't. 

Anyway, I noticed that when I DO have a teeny tiny bit of dairy (aka chocolate cuz of my unhappy moods lately)... My eczema flares up. It doesn't just get a teeny bit itchy. Omg no, I get SUPER DUPER itchy! In fact, I think I get more itchy than when I have my allergic-reaction-rashes. X_x;

Onto other news, my brand new white shirt is ruined. *sigh* Isn't that how it always is? White shirts just attract all the things you don't want on them. The same thing happened to me a week ago (?). I was doing a cash pull and leaned against the safe... TAADAAA!!! BLACK GREASE STAINS!!

This makes me REALLY sad because #1) It's a NEW shirt!!!!!! #2) I ACTUALLY LIKE IT!!! X___x; I liked it enough to buy one in a different color!  #3) It makes me feel thinner (I dont' think it makes me LOOK thinner but it makes me FEEL thinner :P~)

I'm going to try to get it off. It's not as much as the other one... there's a smear on my boob and on my hip-area. :/ And because it's JET BLACK grease, it's quite noticeable.

I was bored two hours ago... There was no one to talk to online, nothing to read or watch... so I decided to stock up on two of my shades. I was going to do 3 but my eyes got tired. Since my supplier doesn't make some of the ingredients I needed any more... I re-formulated those two colors instead. 

I also made a list of what I needed to stock up on (err... re-make so I would have enough to sell). I need to make (as of now) 17 shades. So much fun.

When I got home from work, I don't know what happened. I just suddenly wanted to write down some new ideas for colors.

Then, it turned out that I wanted to create a whole new collection. It makes me sad because I still haven't finished the Lurvlies and I haven't decided on any colors for the BR collection yet. X_x; 

Well, this new collection has 23 colors and it's literally all planned out already. The colors are all planned out (I had some super inspiration or something!) and the names are too. I wrote it all down.

The sad part is... I have names for the BR collection (I believe it'll be 19 shades) but I haven't decided on colors yet. 

Ugh,.. I'm rambling and my eyebulbs are wanting to shut :P

Monday, June 18, 2012

06.18.12 - Damn allergies

The weather here has been kind of....NUTS lately. The last two days have been CRAZY hot. Last night, the weather cooled down dramatically! Today, it's quite cool. But because of the winds, my allergies are acting up making my eyes feel kind of weird.

Anyway, I finished one of my bust-shot commissions and shipped off all my latest i+t orders so I decided to work on my other commissions (I have two more). 

I'm quite irritated that my schedule has changed the last two weeks (last week and this week). My days off were different and next week too. I had a closing shift yesterday. Before I went to work, I told myself to do the pencils for my latest commission and I did. I brought it to work to ink on my lunch break. 

On my lunch break, I was glad to see that no one had lunch with me, so that I could concentrate on drawing. I get distracted VERY easily and if someone watches me draw, I get VERY nervous. I was doing well for 30 minutes and then someone had to sit with me and talk to me non-stop. *sigh* I was a little irritated, but whatever. It did wreck my concentration :/ and I couldn't finish it ;_;

Here it is. I finished inking it this morning. Since my eyes are being weird, I don't plan on coloring it yet, maybe tomorrow. I'm going to figure out how to color GRADIENT hair because this person's original character has gradient hair. 

Wednesday, June 13, 2012

It's only June and I can't believe it's so hot already. It's going to be 103 on Saturday *falls over and dies*. Even if I've lived in Chico (almost same weather as here) and here for... 10+ (wow really?) years, I still can't get used to the weather! I want my Bay Area weather damnit! Where it's 60+!!!! ;__; 

In fact, let's compare temperatures right now :P
Oh, SF! Take me back!!! X_x;;;

Tuesday, June 12, 2012

06.12.12 - updating on my phone

I've had this app on my phone for awhile but have never used it. I think it's funny that it automatically logs into this blog. So if I wanted to post in my other blogs I can only do it at home. how sad

remember my previous post where I had a billion things of chocolate?! now my skin is hating me for it lol cuz my chin had broken out like mad!

ugh I've got a giant headache.

I'm watching a YouTube video righy now and it's kinda distracting me.

I kind of want to switch out my bags but in too lazy. maybe I'll do it tomorrow

speaking of tomorrow, I was told we're going to have an emergency evacuation drill first thing in the morning. and since I'm the opener and only supervisor... I DON'T KNOW what to do!!! good thing my manager's going to be there so ... yeah.. and thank goodness there wont be a billion cashiers id have to keep track of.

anyways I should to I'm falling asleep

Monday, June 11, 2012

06.11.12 - Lalala CHOCOLATE!

Is it sad that I was hoping that the parents wouldn't be home on my day off? 

I wonder why some parents treat their kids like crap and other parents' treat their kids like gold?'s just how I've been feeling for the past month.

Well, good news (?) my eating habits are coming back (kinda). Sleeping not so much. Hello? Why else am I still awake ? :P 

Sunday, June 3, 2012

31st B-day! (May 29, 2012)

OMG WHAT!? I'm posting my B-day post (?) today!?!?!? 

It's almost been a week since my b-day. I wasn't in the best of moods to post it up. But, today I wanted to cheer myself up. This was the best bday I've had...EVER!!!!!!!!! It might not seem much, but when your birthdays suck every year,...

After many MANY changes! We decided to go to On the Border. I had never been there before. The original place was supposed to be Korean BBQ, but none of us could afford it. Someone suggested Applebee's but most of the people hated that place. Then, Colin (another supervisor), suggested we go to On the Border. A lot of us had never been there before. But it's located in the same shopping center as the Applebee's that we were going to go to.

Sandy and Colin helped me reserve the table and ask a bunch of people to go. They basically, almost, planned everything. They even invited people I would normally...NOT invite. >_> But, it's okay. 

I was quite surprised that the parents remembered my birthday. They hardly do. But they remembered this year. This is the cake I got from them. 

When I woke up, I was waiting for the parents to demand that I do something for them. But nothing (yet). A few hours later, my mom calls and tells me to run some errands for her, then she said "Btw, it's your birthday right? There's a cake in the refrigerator. Have some of it."

I took a pic of it and posted it on instagram ;P [look above!]

Friday, June 1, 2012

06.01.12 - Now I know how you really feel...

Maybe I'm the only one that does this, but I judge how my year will be based on New Year's Day and my birthday. 

So far, this year has not been turning out well...

It's been two days since my birthday and on May 30th, everything went downhill already. My parents have not been in the best of moods. But it's understandable... whenever something goes wrong, they take it out on me.

Today, in my room, on my desk... I had a bunch of eyeshadows (similar shades) in a pile. I was going to do my second ... indie dupe post. Well, the parents threw a fit >_<; I admit, they don't come into my room often. In fact, I think the last time they were in here, it was a year ago. 

They started screaming at me about money (their usual). They saw the eyeshadow and the nailpolish and yelled, "Who are you trying to impress?! You're so fat, no one would care anyway! So you're just wasting all your money!!!"

WOW! Thanks self-esteem. I always knew they hated my weight (my whole family does; including grandparents and such) and being Chinese...they're blunt about it. But this really just takes the cake. 

Before this, I had also planned on doing a b-day post. But I just depressed myself... So...maybe another time